Letters For Her

Recently was our one year anniversary, and I just wanted to say that I love you and appreciate you being in my life. You are the most important person to me and I am so lucky to be able to call you mine. I remember the first time I saw you, and I couldn’t believe just how beautiful you were, and still are. By this, I mean your personality - your sense of humour, your intelligence and how easily you can express yourself. In this way we’re very different, while you have no trouble in setting your heart on your sleeve, I have always found it particularly difficult. But you made me feel safe and happy, and that helped me to accept myself and accept that there will be bumps in the road, but it just makes the road trip that much more interesting. I fell so hard for you, and thank God you caught me. Happy anniversary honey. I love you.

     I wish I could just wrap my arms around you and tell you everything will be okay in the end. I wish I could hold you until the tears stop filling up your darkest hours. I wish you could just believe me when l tell you how much I care for you and that I’m not going to run away, like everyone else. Because I am not everyone else. Because I love you.

The past 11 months have flown by, and I still remember our first conversation: it was care free and we were happy. I remember the first time I fell in love with your smile and the sparkle in your eye: I remember how you were, and still are the most lovable person I know, who gives everything to the people you love, even if it leaves you with nothing. You can find value and beauty in the darkest of things and you bring happiness to my life. I have no idea how I coped before you, but what I do know, is that I won’t be able to stand day not knowing you, or caring for you.

But most of all, I don’t think I could ever stand a day not loving you.   

     I know you’ve been snowed under with assignments and homework and tests and stuff so I thought I should spill my love for you and tell you how amazing you are… but you already know that. So instead, I want you to know that even if this week a flying dinosaur swoops down and drops you off in Africa, at least you’ll get a good tan and you can see some elephants. No this is not random, it’s to tell you that no matter how bad a situation can get, there’s always a plus! And who doesn’t like a freaking amazing tan? I love you.

     So you don’t actually know that this blog exists… I think I’m going to give you the link soon. I hope you like it. I’m sort of nervous as to what your reaction will be. But whatever you say or think, I love you.

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     Recently, I’ve been busy with stuff like school and socialising, meeting up with old friends, shopping and work - I’ve also got to view some universities, work some more and everything like that, and I know I haven’t made much time as I normally do for you. I just want you to know that I love and appreciate you and I apologize if it seems like we don’t talk often enough any more. I really don’t know what I’d do without you. I love you.

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     You’re the best thing that ever happened to me. I love you.

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     So I think it’s time to come clean. I have never felt this way about any other person in my life. Ever. I know it sounds cliché, but you are literally the first thing I think of when I wake and the last thing I think of before I sleep. You have taken my heart with both hands, and a tight grip. And that scares the hell out of me. I’ve been with you now for almost 5 months and I still stop and just think about the fact that if you weren’t here any more, it would most certainly break me. Honestly, if I had known you would have this effect on me when I first met you, I would have run a mile in the direction of fear because I have never truly cared and loved someone the way I care and love you. Today, you told me of a nightmare you had about everything and everyone you love, fading away. I didn’t know how to fix it, to make it go away, but what I did know is that I wanted to hug you, and protect you, so the all the evil in the world would have to get through me before it even tried to touch you. Please don’t ever leave. I love you.

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     So, I’m on Skype to you right now, and all I can think about is how beautiful you look today. I mean come on, seriously?! How did I get so lucky? Just umph. I love you.

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    So I know there’s this song you like and I know that it helps you to fall asleep at night. And I’m trying to learn it on the guitar and it is proving very difficult considering I’ve only played for 2 years and my voice isn’t particularly amazing. But I thought it be cute to sing it to you one time - so that’s what I’m going to do. I love you.

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     I want the weather to be freezing temperatures, so that it gives me every excuse to hold you in my arms, to keep you warm. I have cold hands, so maybe you could hold them close to your heart to heat them? Because I’ve never met someone so warm hearted and as kind as you. I’m so lucky to have you in my life. I love you.

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     I haven’t posted in a while because I hope you already know how much I love you. Not only are you my girlfriend, you are my best friend; my soul mate. You’re the first person I  want to tell my news to - good or bad. You’re the first person I go to when I need comfort, a cuddle and a kiss. You make me smile, sometimes even when you can’t quite smile yourself and I hope I make you feel the same way too, because you deserve it, and so much more. I love you.

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     There seems to be a running pattern in my life. I let my guard down and invite someone into my life. I get closer to them then I push them away because I get scared of the commitment to them, in case they leave me or hurt me, as people have left just too many times before. If I push you away, please stop me, and don’t let go because I need you in my life and I care about you so much and I’ll do everything in my power to make you happy; just don’t let go, no matter what and I promise I’ll try to do the same. I love you.

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You came back to me last night and it was amazing. You’re leaving me again for another week. I’ve got a feeling you’re going to break my heart one day. But even still, I love you.

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